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eh bev do you still have that p4 pic of dimbole you and me on your calculator? because if you do can you PLEASE remove it????

and who are you calling silly?? can i help that my family has a tradition of steamboat on new years eve??? yalah i noe it's strange

anyway why were we laughing so hard today? ju on is SUPPOSED to be a horror movie...

the hair move- laugh

the man shake- laugh

the baby- why is it in a plastic bag?? laugh

people getting killed- why they still stand there... don't know how to run away. laugh

is it very funny? and the pple behind also laughing away like siao. when we come out of the cinema pple must've thought we were watching a comedy or smth.

yalah the movie wasn't scary at all. the only time bev scream was when i tried to talk to her

heh

and michelle lee... next time you fall down the escalator can you scream instead of vomit??? siao. and don't pull me down with you....

we keep saying it's the last time we are going to meet... but this is REALLY the last time lah

see y'all in 3 weeks

michelle lee you must wear your pink tube when we meet

Love. 11:17 PM




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ignore that... anyway bev can you also list ur cds??

Love. 12:01 PM




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I'm in a badbadbadbadbadbadbadbadbadbadbadbadbad mood... I've been going arnd reading pple's blogs and concluding that I'm a lifelessfreaknerdgeekfuckerassbitchretardidiot and whatever other derogatory terms you can come up with... yet at the same time there is so much I love abt being me... which of course makes me narcissticarrogantselfabsorbedconceitedvainegotistical ass ever to exist... my life suckssuckssuckssuckssuckssuckssuckssuckssuckslike absolute fucking hell

if I wasn't such a gutless coward I would have killed myself already

maybe it's pms

because it's time and it's not here and i hate waiting like this

argggggggg

or maybe it's just that school's here

and I haven't finished that fucking portfolio

I'm not a good writer so why should I try anyway

I'm not even taking lit

why am I not taking lit? I don't know anymore

I could have chosen any damn option

maybe it's because I don't want to do the sec one orientation thing

maybe it's because I don't want to sit through a jam and go to m'sia

maybe it's because my christmas present hasn't been bought yet

maybe it's because I had this dream last night and I was telling myself to get a life.... in my fucking dream

maybe it's because my life truely and undoubtly (yes I know that they both mean the same thing) sucks like a fucking piece of crap and is about as necessary in this world as wisdom teeth

and if any teacher is reading this and wants to say something about my langague (though I doubt anyone is reading) well let me just say I don't fucking care about the world anymore (I'm just saying that... I do care... see I'm 2 faced too)

I am going to be an antisocial hermit and I think I'll be fine as long as I have an internet and tv and radio... and credit card... I just want min human contact as possible... just maybe with the delivery guy... preferably a forty year old guy who just wants to go home to his wife and kids... then I can spend my life stalking people and observing things from an invisible man's point of view... just there but not there... and write stories in my head... imagine things...

arggggggggggggggggg

if I knew all the words
I would write myself outta here
if I was all the colours
I would paint you pretty in gold in a picture
so I'm told little sister
so now I'm sold little sister
so won't you tell me all about them sunsets in sweden and the laws of eden
and how you were the rock of gilbraltar
and how they called you foxy
well that's another whole box of pandoras
oh it's another whole box of them ties
slide your foot off the gas
before we crash right back into the median
right back into the median the median
it seperates
our house
from the middle of the street

Love. 8:59 PM




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Dinner was FINE... not great but FINE... anyway bev tell me about the cds in two months lah... now if you tell me by CNY I would've forgotten... and the phone issue I think it's off FOREVER... and my sister gets to have a $600 PDA... VERY GOOD... and I think I have diagnosed what's wrong with me.... last week I ate a cheeseburger so it's MAD cow disease and then 2 days in a row ate KFC so got bird FLU... haha wadever... anyway it's time to make new years resolutions... tell me yours... I need inspiration for mine even though I never keep them :p

Love. 8:51 AM




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mich wads with the braces??? huh??? anyway why doesn't ANYONE know who the flaming lips are??? my music tastes are not THAT exotic and the flaming lips are not THAT ulu a band... anyway below are some of the cds i have (legal ones):

sondre lerche don't be shallow ep (yes this rocks but i doubt you will like it)
steely dan everything must go (nonono this sucks... no lah it doesn't but i just don't listen to it)
soundcheck (compilation of rock hits... it's more like toad and the wet sprocket... but you will like some of the songs i think)
MTV most wanted (the p4 or 5 one)
hear'say (first albulm... i think you will like... i also like)
sclub seven (this sucks i don't listen but you will like)
jessica simpson sweet kisses (i think you will like this... can i exchange for one of your cds???)
steps steptacular (baaaaaaaaad taste... blame in on my foolish youth)
your britney cd (erm.. you know which one)
christina aguilera (first albulm... back when she was style and not flesh)
mariah carey music box and rainbow (music box is what i was RAISED on... i use to sing it on the bus to kindergarten... but rainbow is quite sucky lah)
daniel bedingfield gotta get through this and the mini cd (i don't think you want the mini cd from coke)
jason mraz waiting for my rocket to come yahyahyah
boyz II men cooleyhigh harmony (you won't appreciate this one)
kavana greatest hits (who knew he had a greatest hits? i bought this one out of amusement)
otown both albulms (they can't really sing but i love them anyway...)
n'synce (the first one... i had baaaaad taste then)
westlife coast to coast (yes i am normal with a westlife cd)
98 degrees revelation and 98 degrees and rising (revelation sucks)

woah actually so few only... most of my cds are copied i realize... wad the hell now i cannot download anymore so i have to buy... I want:

ani difranco evolve? dunno got so many i want.. oh i want her $60 compilation...
dar williams again got so many i want...
beth orten pass in time
maroon 5 songs about jane
sondre lerche faces down
david grey white ladder
that elvis costello compilation
the new tori amos librarian thing
josh rouse 1972
josh kelley for the ride home

michelle branch hotel paper and spirit room
john mayer havier things and room for squares
lifehouse stanley climbfall and no name face
turin breaks optimist and ether song
(these 8 cds i wanted to buy for so long already... kept saying never buying)

vienna teng
kathleen edwards
tara maclean
(but i doubt even hmv imports these artistes)

ahhhhhhhhhh tonight i have to cook christmas eve dinner with my sisers... sushi and miso soup and chocolate cake and jelly and chicken with cranberry sauce and sparkling wine.... it's going to be a disaster... worst still i am still sick and CAN"T TASTE A DAMN THING... last night fever 37.5... bleahhhh... and actually yeatian (pda), my mother (bag) and my present (guitar... my mother is trying to convince me to use my sister's one but hers is NOT an acoustic guitar!!!) haven't buy yet... after christmas then we are buying... haha we are siao... and my bloody gandmother is coming so i have to vacate my bed... i hate having her around... or any of my relatives for that matter... if only i can be like houyi (mich also will be very happy... one year don't see the mother) but i need her to send me places still....

i can't believe i typed so loooooooooong




Love. 9:27 AM




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yahahahahaha i tink i'm madddd... got drunk on the kfc... i shan't talk abt today lah.... you all already know wad happened... those who don't can just visit your blogs.... any way... i love the flaming lips cd... and it wasn't even on the list of cds i wanted to buyyy!!!!!!!! i now have zero dollars... fuck lah... i realise that that cd shop sells a lot of old pop cds but hmv have more imports... okayyyy i know you all don't care but this is MINE too... i shld get my own blog... but i already tried that several times lah... unless someone wants to help me with layouts coz i don't give a fuck abt that... blank screen better... just words on white... no lah... i everyday go sch also got nothing 'exciting' to say... bleah i have a boring life... anyway I HAVE JUST DOWNLOADED MY FIRST SONG FROM KAZAA IN SIX MONTHS.... oh shit... but i love that maroon 5 song (this love has taken its toll on me.. she said goodbye......) dunno why... i am going straight to jail lah... worst still i have to go re-download my converter, seperator and editor to extract the music from the jason mraz uncle crispy videos which are all legal but all in AVI... have to go change to mp3 and copy... not that i don't already have enough copies off each song... but each performance is soo different... okay i shld go watch the practice now... then watch that taiwanese variety show... stupid lah... anyway i'm going to get even sicker than now... this morning started out with a sore throat now also running nose... 100% going to get fever then christmas cannot eat anything... arrrrr... and i miss screaming and singing like i did at mich's house just now... so uninhibited... i know i looked siao lah...

ps. see y'all in 2 months, CNY MUST meet.. before i go m'sia...

Love. 11:08 PM




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i have at the mostest $20 abt the same as you... actually i want to go out coz this is like the END of the holidays... i go m'sia today then tomorrow then I call you or smth k?

yah you're right... this is a msg board for us but heck lah :p

so I'm told little sister
so maybe I sold out little sister
little sister oh little sister
I'm still crazy crazy for you baby

Love. 8:36 AM




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dancers are not necessarily bimbos but SOME are... anyway who the hell is gonna care if i post tampons or not... i was just counting the total i spent...

Love. 7:15 PM




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spent a ton of money to day... went out with $120 come back with $5... if i tell my mother I will never get to go out again for the next five years...

bought:

movie $6.50
slippers $10
beverley's earring $5.50
beverley's rest of christmas present $4.00
michelle's wallet $10
long johns $6.60
shaver $12
tampons $3
jacket $55

I wasn't even going to buy a jacket and not to say a roxy one as influenced by miss bimbotic matilda chow. turn out to be christmas present but they each pay twenty and I pay $55... RETARDED... and the SLIPPERS... three identical pairs [except mine is size 6 not 9] the woman selling was so happy. and miss bimbotic matilda chow still wanted to buy summore slippers... she is OBSESSED with stripes.... love actually was nice though... what the hell is happening with ant and dec now anyway? i won't say much more about today... the rest can tell you the rest... and I am not going out on mon unless you want me to go out with $15... next year I shall get CDs only... nice and safe... but then again the CDs I want to buy are all imports like ani difranco and sondre lerche so they will also be expensive... I should just be even more hermitable than I am now so I will not go out AT ALL... now even if I want to advance my pocket money also cannot... my mother knows fully well I have $150 and if I ask for more she will ask where the money went.



Love. 8:22 PM




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heyheyhey hope this blog will SURVIVE longer than the last one... haha I'm not a fan of blogging lah... will get too personal then rush back to delete what I wrote until all I'm typing is like 'went to school, came home' type of retarded stuff... but I'll TRY to keep this blog alive... beyond 1 month anyway... do you realize I use a lot of dotdotdot? haha... right now I'm eating dinner: pork chops... I love the onions :p then later going to force my parents to sign a contract that states all the birthday and christmas presents they are going to give me until 2005... I know I'm crazy but who the fuck cares... and hopefully mich will be able to go out tomorrow coz I want my present from her too!!!!!!!

Love. 6:40 PM